Nobody told me

Nobody told me that I was wrong when I talked about running a 2.2 mile 5k race. I know I said more then once that a 5k was 2.2 miles. It was not until I was almost finished, and I was passing the 3 mile marker, that I came to find out that a 5k is actually 3.2 miles. I have to say that if I had been told about the extra mile BEFORE the race, I may have thought twice about running. I was just realllllly glad I had not even thought about signing up for the 8k.

NOW I look it up

I got a small surprise last night so I decided to google the issue today. Apparently, chemo throws you into menopause and tamoxifen has NOTHING to do with causing you to go into menopause. So, because of my age, my body might actually be in menopause and the tamoxifen is just causing the hot flashes. REALLY?? I have to put up with this shit for 5 years? I have another what, 3.5 years to go? REALLY? No wonder the chemo pharmacist said lots of women stop taking it. HOLY CRAP! That is a horse of a differant color. REALLY?

FAT!

It seems that I have gained a good deal of weight lately and as hard as I try to lose it, all I can do is maintain. I have been walking to the train, taking yoga, eating Seattle Suttons for 2 weeks and generally trying to be good and make healthy choices, but the weight is like superglued to my butt. Actually, it is my fat gut that bothers me most. They say that is stress fat, but I am not really stressed about anything at this particular moment of my life.

So, I am left to ask....is it possible my body is actually going through menopause and that is why the hot flashes are more intense and frequent even though I am doing acupuncture and herbs? If that is the case, YEAH! That means that the hot flashes will end when my body is done driving me crazy. Until then, I need to hang on and remember that this too shall pass...like a kidney stone.